Confusion.

Just a mere state of mind?

Or an indication about what I truly feel?

What do I truly feel then?

In times like these, I feel the most helpless. No one to turn to but God Himself. And yet the answers are still not seemingly clear.

Perhaps I should take charge of my life and do what would be right of me to do. But that's still a selfish thought. Do I not care?

And yet, I know this is what I would really want. I would be lying if I were to say I don't feel anything about it, or not having any hopes. At the same time I know this is not for me to decide, and is beyond my control.

So what should I feel then? And what should I do about it?