4/10

that's the number of questions i ACTUALLY got correct...

assuming the other 5 questions which i randomly shaded the answers...

I FLUNKED LIKE SHIT

screw maths.. screw me...

MATHS!!! WHYYYY :(:(

i can't believe it.. im utterly disgusted and disappointed at myself..

how and whY! its just pure stupidity! what the hell's wrong with me!!!

SUCKS man JUST SUCKS.. I IS FAILZ

:'( :'(

sigghhhh sucks day... just crappy....






NYTIMES PERSONALITY QUIZ: TECH GURU
You are something of a traditionalist in your attitude to life and the perfectionist in you is constantly seeking the ideal blend of formality and pleasure in your lifestyle. Your down to earth nature and sense of structure is what makes it attainable. You like to be challenged by thought provoking subjects and tend to find out all the facts before forming your own opinion.

You have an inquisitive mind and possess an irresistible urge to experiment with everything around you. You're a real get-up-and-go kind of person who likes to keep at least one finger on the pulse of everything that's hot and happening from the latest movies and sport to the coolest technologies and gadgets. A true entertainment junkie, there's no chance of you ever getting bored and you're always the first to get your hands on some shiny new gizmo that's going to revolutionize your life. You have a realistic outlook on what you can achieve and enjoy attention to detail in most aspects of your life. You shouldn't miss David Pogue - you can find him on nytimes.com through his columns, videos or weekly e-mail.

I believe in the sun, even when its not shining.
I believe in love, even when I do not feel it.~~

just rambling... I'm more or less dead for midterms this week... perhaps finding such quotes to distract myself to the happiness of life rather than the depressing state of my studies...

願心中永遠留著我的笑容
伴你走過每一個春夏秋冬

"The irony is that Jesus knew who would desert Him, and yet this did not dictate how He treated them." -Living Life 22/9

I pray I have that tolerance...

was reading a friend's tumblr when i came across the depressing portraits of closed bookstores..

admittedly, I was never a fan of bookstores or libraries or book cafes or any of that sort.. In my mind, I would rather spend the time chilling either at home, or taking a stroll or just spending my time outside alone or with friends.. Books was never made a big part of my life, majority of which is my fault..

Yes I hated reading, I hated the idea that my eyes have to scan through all those hundreds upon thousands of characters and texts and words, and then having to process them in my head into a form of literary expressions I can understand.. I found reading more of a chore than a joy, simply because..

I. Was. Too. Lazy. To. Read..

Or so I thought..

I often envied and respected people who rave on about how they get such satisfaction reading this book, or that book, or how much they really want to squeeze the time outside of their already hectic schedules just to sit down and read a particular book they just got and really just enjoy the peace and joy of reading..

Envied, because, deep down inside, I really wanted to be like them, being able to just grab a book and immerse myself into a world of "literary bliss", to be so engaged in the writer's expression and just be oblivious to my surroundings, engaging myself in the world of literature and expressions..

Respect, because these people are able to express themselves in a way far beyond my league, to be able to express fully their thoughts and ideas, using all those different forms of literary expressions they picked up from years of reading..

Seeing all those portraits of closed bookstores, I start to regret why I hadn't actually pushed myself to read more.. There's a sense of, perhaps loss I should say, that I've probably wasted more hours doing nothing than actually making the effort to even read a book from cover to cover.. There are still stacks of books lying around in shelves at home that haven't been touched in ages, books that I started reading since primary school, but have yet to be finished even till today..

And outside, bookstores are already struggling to make a decent living, given all these competition and hype over e-books and appstores offering books for purchase. Yes, I do agree that no e-books or digital books ever come close to the experience of opening a physical book and lounging on the sofa flipping through the pages..

Maybe one day, just that one day, I might find that joy in reading that I've always envied..

perhaps..

" friends keep u happy. TRUE friends tell truths that may make u sad now, but will make u happy in the long run. :)" -anonymous

true friends tell truth that may make you sad, but not shame you in public by disguising an accused criticism as a harmless fun joke, that is just a joke gone bad and which has crossed the line..

true friends give you HONEST criticism, and i have no problems accepting honest criticism, but not baseless accusations and criticisms about my character and personality, because that is just a harmful personal attack.. i do joke about it and accept the jokes even when its done in my face, but to do it behind someone's back is just plain sly and disrespectful..

BUT! even if i dislike what he has done, i still respect him because he has the guts to talk to me and apologise and admit his fault, and still be willing to clear the misunderstanding and learn from his mistake. granted i have a part to play in this misunderstanding and commotion, but at least he's willing to listen to how i feel and understand the appropriateness of the situation with respect to other's viewpoints. this is what a TRUE FRIEND really is, someone who is honest with you, and unashamed and humble in his character to know where he crossed the line and still be repentant about it. its not only about truths that make you sad or happy in the long run..

so, mr anonymous, please don't make superficial statements like that, please rethink your idea of a true friend, because you're degrading the true value of what true friendship really stands for, and it makes me sick to think that you can be so misconstrued to that level.