it's not the end of the world..


you're stronger than that..


get up, and get a move on..


you're doing great jy

one more month...

just one more month to finishing this 2 year stint of army life..

honestly, despite the many frustrating moments, anger, disappointment, stress and what not, the 2 years did leave some memories in my head..

of course i won't forget the friends i've made there, the times of fun that we had.. how we'll sit around to bitch about things in camp, sitting around our first heating stove and preparing late night maggi suppers.. in the end these people are the ones who made ns not seem like the shit that it is in our lives..

yet obviously there are the people who live for the purpose of ruining your life, intentionally or otherwise.. no matter how much you just don't give a damn about them, they will always appear in your life to throw some shit in your face..

so, yes and no, ns was and was not in any single way fun.. but there are lessons learnt, and some lessons you really have to remember even way past this 2 years..

my only regret was not building a stronger relationship with those friends i hung around with during this ns cycle.. so at the end, i went in and spent 2 years of my life really wasted..

totally totally wasted//

4 months. its been a long 4 months...

just came back from france and olomouc. well done ppl, well i guess since the congratulations have been given already there's not much point in saying more..

this few months of practise culminating in the trip actually taught me much.. it was different, nothing like graz, nothing like prague, nothing like anything that we've gone through before.. it was really different, not just with the ppl we sang with, not just the place, not the superficial things on the outside..

what was different was on the inside..

i think jason's note hit the right spot.. it didn't mattered whoever was singing beside each other, behind or in front.. friendship didn't matter on stage, at least for me.. the thing i felt the deepest was the fact that, everyone had worked hard to come this far, and share everything they had with one another on stage, the bonds, the love for each other, the love for the audience, most importantly the love for music. i think its a combination. you can never attribute success like this to a single factor, but we did it purely because we were able to come together and get everything down on the table.

it was really hard, it was tough, draining, everything was disastrous, everything went haywire. what could go wrong went wrong, and then some..

but it didn't matter again.. troubles are here to make us stronger, what can't kill us only makes us stronger. obstacles are here to be overcomed. we held together, heads together, arm in arm, and walked through the battlefield. it didn't matter what the outcome was, with every firm step that we take we seal each moment into our lives, and crush every obstacle in our way. it's this togetherness that paved the way forward, and gave everyone single-mindedness to get into the fight together, regardless of difference or motivation..

that is why it is different..

i've never rated two trips in the same way before.. each and every was different from others, i never believed nothing could be learnt from any of them..

it was not easy. not like others were easier, but we were more confident in other competitions. we walked in blind this time. blinded by ambitions, fogged by uncertatinties, halted by hesitations. it wasn't easy to move, the chains of the army broke one by one, each and everytime we took a blow. we were greatly weakened. but we never stopped, yet we never gave up, not on ourselves, not on our fellow comrades, not on miss lim. the weakest of man can still have the strongest of heart, and it is this heart that bore the strength that we all need. not by our own strength, but by the strength of everyone else. the chain is only as strong as its weakest link, and we manage to hold the chain firmly all the way till the end..

that is why it is different..

this may be my last, i don't know what holds for me in the future with regards to choir or even alumni. i leave all my fate to God.

but what an amazing last run it has been..

march 2010

soon, soon, just hold a little longer!!

man its been so long since i've last blogged... close to a year... i bet noone's gonna read this anyway...

so to sum up the past year, it's been quite a fun ride i guess?? quite alot of stuff happening around, like new camp, new faces, new leaders, new bunkmates, new friends... basically new everything....

and my journey in new camp been's bittersweet in some sense?? to say it's been absolutely fun is an overstatement, and to say that i've been having no fun is quite undermining the fact that i've got good companions... well so-so's the best answer i can give tho.. half the year chiongsua-ing, half just doing random work cos of my injury...

and of course there's my operation just a few weeks ago.. not gonna say much about it.. its an operation, wat do you expect?

and ermm.. basically spending the last few weeks rotting at home, playing, reading, watching tv, physio... i really dunno how to spend time at home better... there seems to be a lack of things i can think of doing....

and yep there's choir pracs... really hope i can go for france and olomouc.. depends mostly of my leave application (which i have no idea whether its been approved or not, noone told or informed me of any progress as of yet... just keeping my fingers crossed)

chinese new year.. hmmm... 3 more days? yea, nothing much to expect... not visiting as many relatives as before... so not gonna be very re4nao4 or anything like that... just the usual people coming to the house for reunion dinner, then heading to their hosue to sit around....

oh and yea, finally bought a ps3 in this year... slim... not that its any big news or anything... and got verryyyy little games cos of the fact that ps3 games cos hell lot.....

hmmm... really not left with much to say.... i think im just writing this to waste time while waiting for my music to end.. not much motivation to write anything in detail...

and if its of any interest im listening to wondergirls, alot, nowadays :)