this week has been super eventful, and super fun heh.

sunday went out with my mum to buy jacket for prom.. din actually want to spend money for prom, but oh well, since i din have a jacket my mum decided to just buy one for me.. then went to buy some ns stuff for enlistment -.- went jean's place for choir gathering with the batch and seniors, spent the night talking about random stuff and playing guitar sing songs eat food, had quite abit of laugh and fun.

monday and tuesday were just dominated by acapella practises. went thru our story and started learning superman thru nwc.. it was crazy, cos we only had 5 days left till prom to at least practise well for both songs.. we just tried our best to learn the songs and did a little combine..

wednesday had jap buffet for lunch with some choir juniors! with yingting gloria elizabethphua david and bob.. and turned out i was the only senior there, which felt quite weird. but oh wells, since the rest had stuff on like caroling prac and other stuff, and yingting gloria was like trying to convince me to go.. but we had so much fun eating all the stuff (which i shldn't be doing since im enlisting soon) then they had some woosh thing for me, like an enlistment farewell thingy heh. thanks you all :) then rushed back to school for acapella prac again. thankfully kunwon was there to help us out and listen to us.. went to town after prac to get my classical guitar to sell to xianyou, then met up with him to join the 852 ppl at harbourfront to have dinner and celebrate yichan's birthday.. stayed around singing songs at night before going back home...

thursday was free day.. went for cg at yuhui's house and the rest of the day was just slacking away...

friday, PROM!! went dijie's house in the morning to supposedly practise for acapella, but in the end we played wii while waiting for jason to come.. played somemore before we seriously practised and tried to get our songs together..went for lunch at a nearby coffeeshop, then in the afternoon went to a hair salon that shaun recommended.. actually din want to do anything one, since i got no money.. then the guys tried to convince to at least style my hair for $8, and so reluctantly i did, but guy said my hair was too thick, so he recommended to cut my hair thinner for another $7.. in the end the aca guys helped me pay abit for my hair, and it turned out GREAT!! like first time in 18 years, or at least since i had hair that i've ever had my hair styled so nicely!! too bad i cant really keep that hair since im gonna have it shaved in a week, but oh well, once in a lifetime is not that bad :) prom was quite fun, spent alot of time taking pictures with choir ppl and cg and classmates and just chatting away.. the food was ok i guess, but the emcee was IMBA!! he's super funny! acapella was the finale item (no idea why) but everyone was busy taking pictures that only the choir came to the front to support and listen.. we din really do superbly well, but ok ba, since noone's listening anyway.. alot of random things happened around, so was quite chaotic.. went back to dijie's house and spent the night at his home, thank God for him:)

went back home yesterday for awhile, then went to service.. then went down to island resort for ivan's birthday party.. spent a LONG time waiting for the stupid bus to come to the interchange at bedok, and i had totally no idea where to drop off, so i just randomly took my chances and thank God i alighted at just nice the rite stop, ate alot and caught up with old friends whom i've not met for like 2 years already.. spent the night talking random stuff and watching movie heh.. went home with some guys and had further rubbish talk and jokes on the bus..

now going over to ben tay's house to play mahjong with old frens!! woohoo!!! oh and pictures are uploaded http://picasaweb.google.com/tommihuang heehee

HOORAY!!! i finally got my own guitar! totally loved it when i saw it at the shop.. but was contemplating on whether to get that or another one that's cheaper.. but its really good, and it sounds good (and look good)!! $300, which i think was not too bad.. altho that's like $100 over my budget, i dun really care! its my christmas present, i deserve to splurge abit more :)

and thanks to cherie, dijie xianzhe and xuan wei who followed me all the way to parklane after choir and spent like over 30plus minutes looking around at random guitars while i was trying the guitars.. and especially to dijie for helping me choose as well! yay thanks so much to all of you guys :)

i haven't posted for quite long, so it feels quite strange to be posting here again..
not to mention i should be studying and prepping myself up for chem and econs tml rather than being online.. but i guess i just write something before i go for an early night..

A levels has been.. hell of a ride.. i guess? half of me is filled with satisfaction about my performance for my papers.. i guess i may not have done THE best, but i've managed to complete all (if not just one, physics paper 2 -.-) of my papers within the time, which i've not done before in any of my exams this year.. and im quite relieved that my exam anxiety that i feel in my previous exams are sort of not really there this time, and i can really concentrate better.. thank God for that then, so i guess im pretty much feeling ok about this few weeks..

yet the other half of me blames myself for not being sharp-eyed enough to catch my own careless mistakes.. it may be like 5 or 6 marks worth of careless mistakes, plus a few more that i may lose in my attempt to answer qn which i have no idea how to... but 10 marks in a paper that's worth 60 or 80 marks.. that's actually quite a lot.. and when i keep thinking about it, i keep getting the sense that its dejavu all over, like prelims... and it worries me.. cos i really dun want to disappoint.. not myself, not my parents, not my teachers.. admittedly, the screwup in prelims was all my fault.. but i went into a levels since day one telling myself i must not come out at the end feeling regretful about the things i've done wrong, or the mistakes i've made.. and apparently i doubt its gonna turn out well for me.. i dunno, maybe i just think too much, maybe my papers will not turn out to be bad, maybe i'll get good grades that im satisfied with.. but that's all "maybe", so wat then is the "confirmed" outcome? the prelims results ordeal is a bad blow to me already.. if a levels is gonna do the same in march next year, i dunno wat im gonna do to myself...

that said, 2 more days.. just 2 more days.. hang in there..

yes! fixed the guitar... hopefully it doesn't gg in the future.. the pack of strings cost 7 dollars!!! and now my heart races everytime i try to tune it, and everytime i hear a creaking sound from the guitar my heart will just skip a beat... that's very costly to maintain the guitar...

but oh well.. since its not mine, i shld do my best to keep it in good condition..

working on gp sucks... i hate a levels (like who doesn't)... i just cant wait for it to be over quick!!!

but when a's are over, that means i have less than a month to ns.. hmmmmm...

i have no other way of putting it.. i just gg-ed my guitar (not actually mine, borrowed from senior, so that's even more gg)

i broke 2 strings while trying to retune them back, and i think i filed the saddle too much, cos the low e string keeps buzzing... i just hope its cos of the 2 missing strings... and that once i put them back everything will be alrite.. again?? but that's only after a's can i really spend time trying to fix these things... so that means no more guitar to play.. and im not even really sure i can fix them properly... just wanna get them done quick!!

and i want a's to be over quick!!!

and soo.. im enlisting on 12 december.. 1212.. nice number, i should go buy 4D.. -.-

damn sian, that means i can't go caroling.. and i have less than a month to party after my a levels.. and means im gonna miss out on a lot of fun with the choir ppl...

crap...

i dunno why, but im totally falling in love with Giorni Dispari by Ludovico Einaudi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qICoHUxE1bU
been listening to it over and over for quite a number of times, and each time i listen it just draws me into the music..

wanted to go physics paper review today.. and when i just changed into my uniform, the skies opened and the rain POURED down... i had to run around the house taking in the clothes, closing and locking all the windows before my house floods.. and even tho i never stepped out of the house, my uniform was already almost drenched.... in the end stuck at home, doing gp...

oh, went out to study yesterday with xianyou, hewlett and andris.. at first went esplanade library with xianyou.. but there was no place to sit, so we went to rooftop to lag while waiting for hewlett.. and xianyou just indulged in emo songs.. in the end we decided to go suntec city starbucks to mug when hewlett arrived.. we spent like 3 or 4+ plus hours in starbucks mugging, or at least they were.. i spent 3 or 4+ hours doing my gp compre and essay, which neither of them did i complete there.... packed up at about 630, then walked around suntec with hewlett to look at phones... then both of us walked over to funan to look somemore.. actually wanted to eat dinner, but it was too expensive!!! like i cant find anything cheaper than 4 dollars! but hey we were in town, so cant blame them.. in the end i pang seh-ed hewlett to go back bishan to buy dinner back home to eat heh.. spent like the night trying to do more gp, but ended up looking at more phones on the net... super unproductive haha! and i cant believe like its not very long away from a levels, yet im taking it so easy?? its just plain horrible.....

RARRRR
i want a sony ericsson p1 or w960...
i dun care i dun care!!!!
the only thing that's stopping me now is cos of a levels, and that singtel DOESN"T SELL THEM ANYMORE COS THEY'RE OUT OF STOCK...
which means i have to travel to amk hello shop to try..
which means i have to convince my mum to travel to amk hub to buy me one
plus we have to do so quick before stocks run out there as well



which all means its mission impossible!!!!

watched mission impossible 3 today, so i really do believe my wish may come true...

had a.. not that very eventful day today?? i dunno, not really in the mood to think anyway...

well ok, at least i sort of sabo-ed xianyou into being embarassed during physics revision lesson (which i have no idea why he would be there anyway??) by replying to his stupid sms-es and being caught by the teacher for qutie some time :) and chem was, err im not sure, kinda just like the usual revision lecture kinda stuff...

then went to celebrate cherie's birthday.. well not really a celebration, sang birthday song and let her cut cake before she had to rush off for consult.. then the aca guys went to an empty classroom to practise stand by me, supposedly for auditions to perform at prom.. haha kinda rusty already, since we haven't really sang together for like a damn long time, hopefully it will turn out quite well tml :) after auditions then lag around in the classroom with some choir ppl, waited for cherie to end consult, then went to eat lunch together.. came back to school to crash choir practise for awhile with the choir ppl, had a bit of chat with miss lim, then left in the middle... so that was just about wat happened in school?? nothing much..

came home, and finally decided to tell my mum about my results, specifically my horrendous gp grade.. kinda expected her reaction: disappointed, naggy, sort of angry blah blah.. wasn't really thrilled at all... but she din really whack or threw a load of thrashings at me thankfully.. but it still felt bad.. i dunno, im quite sadded now.. like why of all my subjects, gp has to be one she focuses on most, and gp has to be the one which i totally flunked like crap.. and i cant help but keep thinking wat a failure i am, can't even work hard enough to get a decent grade (even tho i really tried) but gp's really something i can't do for nuts.. i just dun have interest nor passion for it, and i keep trying but i keep failing, its just super crappy for me...

and i just can't tell you how much i really hate gp and how much i really dun want to do gp anymore.

its been horribly borrinnnggggggg..... its feel like im just wasting my time away lagging around watching top gear all day long...

finished maths revision lecture and chem as well.. only to find out that the chem qn that i did was for the revision lect on thursday, and they only just posted the rev qn for tuesday's lect... -.- oh man so suay.. now have to go do another set of chem qn..... and gp for consult and lecture also...

went out to paradiz in the afternoon to repair guitar.. went to second hand handphone shop first to sell my spoilt sony ericsson.. sad man, can't bear to part with my dear phone :( sold it for 30 bucks, which is crappy little >< should have sold it the last time when he quoted 50 for me...

then travelled all the way to paradiz to some musical instrument shop, left my friend's guitar there to be repaired during the week ($75!!! oh my, damn ex ><) then was thinking thru about how to save as much money as possible to repay ALL THE HUGE DEBTS i owe to so many ppl... sian, inflation sucks!!

i really got to get back to work... less than a month left... haizz.

felipe massa, HAHAHA!!!!

i love ferrari for their technical screwup :)

gogo hamilton!

wat to say??
im supersupersupersupersuuuuuuuperrrrrperperperperpepreprperpeprepepreprpeperperpeperperperpeprperperpeprer
disappointed at the results i've gotten back...

and pls dun say i did well enough for prelims standard, or at the end i'll get my A for a levels (not that i dun want to :p ), thank you all for your comfort and concern, and i do appreciate that..

but that's not an excuse, in the end i do know myself that i did damn dig-dastardly badly... not up to my usual standard, and really screwed up my papers..

i shld just kill myself..

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that's only wat i have to say about today... maybe tonight will be better

finally... PRELIMS ENDED!!!! thank God i cant stand anymore of this any longer... i will DIEE if this doesn't end by now....

at least physics mcq was ok.. abit of careless and stupid mistakes again here and there... but overall, think is one of the better physics paper 1 i've done so far.. shan't be too confident, but at least its WAYYY better than chem paper 2 -.-

went out with adriel, jack and gang to plaza sing after physics to hang around... had an extremely full lunch at carl's junior... went to watch Babylon AD after that.. it was plain not worth it-.- the storyline is messed up, the characters were unbelievably unimaginable, and the movie just left all of us stupefied and unclear of wat just went on... not a good effort at all....

oh before movie, we went to build a bear for donald kng (his birthday) !!! dear daddy donald now has a son-daughter (??) bear to call his special one!!! called donaldo the kng !!! ahha the whole time spent in build a bear factory was super hilarious!! we were like looking around for a suitable bear for donald, when the assistant came to ask us if we had any preference for bears, we were like spamming nonsense around looking for a feminine bear for him... then we were playing around with the sound input for the bears thingy, and the heartbeat... got a fluffy bear, stuffed it with cotton..

and just before sewing the bear up when donald had to put the bear's heart into it, that was super funniest event!!! the assistant asked donald to choose a heart for the bear, but in the end we decided his gay partner (adriel) shld do the honours and choose a heart haha.. then donald was asked funny qn like "would you love this bear??" "do you want your heart to be with the bear's heart?" and he was made to rub the heart against his heart, and between his palms and kiss it before putting inside the bear!! the rest of us were laughing away like mad ppl cos donald looked super hilarious!! (not that the loving bear or heart thingy is a bad or stupid thing.. i personally feel that if the bear is a truly special gift for someone then those acts would definitely be worth doing, and overdoing for the sake of it, it is afterall a great idea and service from the store... but the fact that donald is the one doing it with his funny actions makes it amazingly crazy and funny!) after sewing the bear up, donald then had to give his bear a blowdry and scrubbing with a brush, which was another crazy laughter inducing section! and we all helped to give his bear a birth certificate for "donaldo the kng"! the entire bear making process for donald was just super crazy and funny!!


after movie adriel zhiyong jacob jack and i went to play pool.. and we changed out of our uniform and just wore our jackets with nothing underneath! haha so imba, played for a couple of hours before they left, then i went over to yuhui's house to join the cg for bbq.. sang songs, played cards, make stupid jokes, had alot of laughter and just enjoyed myself tonight there... then went up to her house to clean up the dishes, and experiment with chocolate :P made some hot chocolate milk, which was not bad, considering its our first time ?? haha..

end of prelims could never been made better! how i wish everyday was end of prelims, then we can just go out everyday to just lag around and enjoy life as it is!

im listening to "another one bites the dust" by queen....

and while listening to the song, im thinking about chem paper 2...
think i swallowed the whole chunk of chem dust with my crazy screwed up paper 2... (half the paper of blanks and mistakes)

this prelims really sucked.. like totally...

i just threw away wat little chances of A for chem from paper 1 and 3 with my horrendous performance.. things just cant get worse huh...

im really super emo over chem... i really have no mood for anything else.. my blood boils and my brain's gonna explode...

im starting to get more and more disappointed with myself.. i really cant stand the way that i cant even get easy things done right...

maths today, other than AP/GP, everything was manageable.. pure maths is.. no comments, it has its difficulty and easiness.. worse is statistics... 60% statistics in the paper is just give away!!! and i lost marks just because my stupid eye and slow brain cant register wat the stupid qn was asking, and in the end used wrong methods... yea i guess losing 7 to 10 marks in this careless fashion is unavoidable.. but NO its not unavoidable (considering i had quite a bit of time to read and re-read the qn over and over again) its plain stupidity on my part, cos rite after the paper ended did i realise wat had gone wrong...

and not just maths, alot of my other subjects had lost marks cos of plain stupid careless mistakes which i should not have made... im seriously disappointed at my performance, tho i know most of the time i let my nervousness get the better of me, its really not an excuse cos its been something i've been trying to fight ever since cat high, and time and again i fail to get better at every single exam...

i seriously doubt i could get good results... at least 3 As for my sciences? that's like a seemingly hard goal to reach after the sucky papers i've been through... and even if i do get my As, its not wat i believe i could have gotten... this prelims is just a really bad time for me...

today's physics was... not so good?? i hate de broglie wavelength.. ( esp the stupid qn that came out, wat kind of qn was that!!! totally never see before dammit!! and the balloon crap urgh!!)

and i GG-fied myself even further while the paper was being collected.. i was feeling bored ( like duh, after such a stupid screwed paper i just wanted to get out and leave te paper for good) and i started messing around with my GC.. was randomly pressing keys and doing all sorts of stuf
then reset my GC over and over again...

suddenly i dunno why, i just pressed the row of keys 0258 and ON, suddenly the gc asked me if i wanted to reset... so i thought i pressed the 28 ON keys to reset function, then i just went on ahead to press reset.. all of a sudden, the "MEMORY CLEARED" message came onto my screen (not shocking actually) but the damn stupid thing was the "FOR SINGAPORE" message DID NOT COME UP!!!! OHMYGGFIEDWATTHECRAPIDIDTOMYGC!!!!! check my apps, and ALL MY APPS ARE GONE!!! LIKE WAT THE!!! and my maths paper 2 is on monday... RARRRRRR PLS DO THIS TO MEEEE!!!! SLAP MYSELF LAR!...

thank God calean was willing to lend me her gc with the apps inside... oh man need to re-install my apps before a levels ><

ahh yess. went to eat lunch with xianzhe xianyou (xianzheyou.. -.-"" ) then saw dr ang coming into the canteen, and she asked us how was physics..haha so we complained to her and just emo-ed.... and when we queued up for our food, dr ang came back to us and GAVE EACH OF US A BOTTLE OF MILK to cheer us up.. and we're like super stunned and super thankful!!! she's the best!!! that milk was super encouraging, THANK YOU DR ANG!!!

and cg until very late.. haha dragging all the way after games talking about physics and logic and whatever-not.. xiaoyang is super knowledgable and well read haha..very intelligent guy lar.. then started QT after like one hour of crapping :p and ended cg like 8 plus, then headed over to HC international school to talk to this australian guy, fomr Hope Brisbane.. had a super long but interesting chat about alot of stuff.. now super tired after the super long day spent in school heh...

i lost close to 20 marks each for maths P1, chem P3, physics P3... and many more i predict will be lost in the coming papers, thanks to the onslaught of tonnes of careless mistakes and not reading the questions properly...

so most probably can't get what i aimed to achieve.. i really wanted to do well like get all my As in my sciences to show my mum that i've really been working hard since coming back from graz.. its time to prove my parents wrong that they think i've constantly been slacking and doing useless random stuff like playing all day long...

but i guess i just wasted this chance away by screweing my papers up with stupid mistakes that i should never have made... am i sad? a little.. more like disappointed and angry at myself for screwing up...

the higher you aim, the harder you'll fall.. i bet i just fell and broke the damn floor...

msn is becoming really cranky and irritating!!!
like all my msg cant deliver to any fren im talking to, in every convo!!!
i have to retype alot of my msgs like 2-3 times before it wun get cut off
siannn, its quite irritating actually
REPAIR YOURSELF MSN!!!

im seriously starting to get irritated by internet explorer for its frequent (and definitely unwelcomed) hanging in the middle of doing my stuff, which means having to bring up task manager, close IE (which takes an astonishing long time for i-dunno-wat reasons), reopeing another IE window, reloading the page, and then redoing wat i had done (yes, had done, IE HANGED JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO CLICK THE ENTRY BUTTON)

firefox, you're my new best friend when it comes to surfing the web (altho it takes wayy too long for the firefox window to open, but who cares)

was reading thru my 2 years of blog posts, and i must really say:
how this 2 years has really changed me and the things around me..

prelims tml, at least only gp this week.. haha i've been super unproductive ever since start of study break, go school with guitar, then play lots of emo songs and sing with xian you.. im actually quite envious of the tenors, damn they have good voices ><

im starting to fall in love with chinese love songs, like "forever love" or "ni bu zai".. they're very expressive and touching, and playing guitar and singing at the same time really gets the mood going, in me at least..

that said, JASON MRAZ IS IMBA!!! oh my learnt a lot of songs, like butterfly, shy that way, wordplay, and they're all superb!! i think jason mraz is really seriously super talented with his guitar, and his singing is superb!!! very nice :D:D

went dinner and late night chatting with xianyou and dijie at j8 last saturday night.. haha talked alot of things, like our feelings, and emo stuff, and really got personal with each other.. i think they're really great friends to hang around, cos we really understand wat each other is going thru, and we're not afraid of sharing our feelings with each other and supporting each other throughout.. haha you guys are the best man :)

and i receive lots of random msg from xianzhe!!! haha, 4 years in cat high, din know you got that in you man :P suddenly so imba ah!!

i shall not be distracted anymore!!!!
now back to studying for prelims, and ultimately A levels!!!!

Psalm 23:4 "even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil, for You are with me, Your rod and Your staff, they will comfort me"
a powerful verse i think, my friend reminded me of its significance today while i was studying in school.. i shall carry on this spirit and continue to walk this journey with strength!! Amen.

you already have your own laptop, so stop hogging the family comp on the pretext you're preventing me from playing at night! dun think you've already graduated and you think you're the most responsible one to be controlling my comp usage... becos the fact is you AREN'T.

all you do is use the comp to watch your stupid ghost whisperers or dramas, when i lie down on the couch waiting for my turn to use the comp just to check smb, and even after asking you politely you just totally dao me. super irritating ><

seriously, just get off the comp, you're not the king, i'm not obliged to let you watch your dramas even when im doing a project on my comp, that's just plain ignorance on your part! one of these days i'll just burn all your videos onto dvd so that you'll have no excuse of hagging the comp when i need it...

worse still i'll just delete all your videos..

dear God, im feeling the stress over prelims now, pls help! and esp with all these things happening around im gonna bao soon, pls take them away from my life!!! :(

"L.O.V.E."
L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

Can love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

Can love is all that I can give to you
Love, love, love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
'Cause love was made for me and you
I said love was made for me and you
You know that love was made for me and you

random, but oh well since noone reads my blog i just blog for the sake of doing it.....

how can a evo X be slower than an impreza wrx sti??? i dun get it??? is it even technically possible for the impreza to outrun the evo on the track??

that said i dun really care.. evo x is still the better CAR ( at least in my mind its a car, not some ugly abomination) and most importantly to LOOK AT.. its way cooler than anything out there, other than previous generations of evo which were not that bad.


nissan gtr. oh my that is simply an engineering masterpiece.. and it looks as good as it can get. simply stunning. i think japan makes the best cars out there, nissan gtr, evo, honda nsxr, it couldn't get any better than them ppl.. really why bother with buying supercars that cost a bomb and is simply undrivable ( i talk of porshe and ferrari) if cars look as good as the japanese ones and drives superbly well, i dun see its point..

i really should study now......

IE IE IE IE

i hate it when my internet explorer hangs 3 times within 5 minutes when im just scrolling down a single webpage.... irritating.......

i dunno why but i've been feeling very tired and stressed out for quite some time over the last week..

i guess i must have been pretty stressed out by h3.. tho maths is something that i kinda enjoy, (and something i hope i can continue having passion in), having extra lectures and tutorials on h3 is really taking its toll on me.. plus having lectures late in the afternoon doesn't really help me to concentrate much... the extra commitment is taking my time away trying to understand wat's going on and trying to squeeze in that little bit more formulas into my brain... and i feel bad for sleeping in lectures, (and even tutorials!!!) when i clearly did not put in enough effort to get my work done... now i find myself begging for time to move on slowly so i can actually accomplish much MORE things in my freaking messed up life...

and frankly, my h2 work is as messed up.. i think i've got my whole last year's work to catch up on, that's how much i've deproved in the 2 months holidays... and blocks are coming up in just a couple of weeks more, oh man i dread the work!!

and i still want to go for choir olympics.. blocks is my one and only chance for me to prove to my mum that im capable of handling all the work... i can't screw this up.. which means i have to repeat wat i did for promos... WAT THE!!!


ok no, i can't carry on letting my emotions and feelings get the better of me.. maybe i've emo-ed long enough and its time to stop... afterall i already promised sam and jon to do so...

maybe i shld learn to seek happiness in everything.. i've got good friends... :)
oh, choir orientation was fun :) pictures up on hewlett's blog!

i have a new big screen monitor for my comp!!! YAY!!!! which means ----->

my bro has a newer, big, brighter and zai-er screen monitor for his comp, so now i can play games on his comp on a bigger, brighter and zai-er screen!!! double YAY!!!

BUT !!



i shldn't be playing games cos of A levels... awwwww damn.....