a new printer, monitor, radically change cpu system, new game to last 10 hours, full nites rest with some extra sleep added and an almost complete set of homework makes junyao extremely happy boy...

at least the last point is to say how hardworking i am.. hey, i woke up at 6 plus this morning to do the pile of tutorials on my table... i was supposed to do them last nite, but i reached home last nite because of a wonderful day out of home..

had choirfrom 10.30 to 3 yesterday.. note 10.30, and wat time did i reach school? 9.30, for wat?? to check out the photocopy chop and office to see if i could collect our class new timetable... and the point is? 5 day week sucks, cos it wasted my time walking around the school to find that almost every office in the school was closed....

lunch was with my section near the school... got to know at least my seniors in the section better... after that, back to choir which was pretty much ok..

had my og gathering after choir.. went down to nicole's house which was EXTREMELY HUGE.. omg like one of the biggest i've seen... even the doors are relatively big man.. imagine the horror to clean up every single spot in the house......

anyway, played a bit of cards with the og mates discreetly, but shifted to board games after that.. MONOPOLY, but only a small group of us, the rest were chatting away at another corner... haha we were just enjoying ourselves laughing away at each other for landing at another property, then paying up blah blah... had pizza for dinner as well.. then only returned home later around 8.30, but the freakin 156 was so damn long lor, took nearly half hourto come to the busstop, tmd....

sian there's still some work left to do, guess i'll quickly complete them all by nite ba.....

silence is torturous.. silence is heart-breaking.. its not anywhere near golden..

i wish to hear from you, yet you walk past me, unknown of my existence, unknown of where you stand in my mind..

of the few when you did notice, we could never stop to say a bit of hi.. we seem like strangers, yet all i want is to just talk to you, face to face.. i see your smile, your presence which brightens my day.. yet all you do was to raise a hand and mouth the word "hello", when all i wanted was to have a chat, not for long, but just a while, yet it all seemed impossible... and all i could do, was to raise my hand, and watch you walk away into the distance..

i fear myself.. i have no confidence.. i am downright inferior to the guys that you hang out with.. you seem to enjoy your time with them.. i am afraid, much too afraid to approach you.. it seems that for you to know me was a total waste of your time.. but i'll still hold on, to the slightest of glimmering hopes..

i feel so lonely, my world has grown dark and quiet, clouds which beckons the deepest of sorrows.. when is the day when i see your face again, or rather, when is the day i can summon myself to walk up to you, to speak to you, instead of fear rejection..

i wish that you can hear me, my cries for your attention.. you who filled a most important place within, emptied for the last decade.. you seem so close, but yet so far from me.. so near, but so distant...

its unbearable, this silence between us..

im so damn tired, and there's still so much things to do!!!

just returned home from coro, had dinner with some classmates at prince.. then we were like chatting and laughing around, talking about things we dun normally talk about, playing games....

it was then that i realised even more just how wonderful this life is... back in sec school it was pretty rare for a few classmates to actually gather round to have dinner and chit chat, tho life back then was a bit more comfortable cos there were like only guys around and we can just talk about crap and noone cared much about wat we were doing... now jc life is just filled with endless fun and laughter, there's so much more things to discover within our class, and i dun feel sick or tired to be out with them, be it for meals or just gatherings...

and i now really appreciate the friends that i had who were always with me back then and even now, like adriel or anybody else.. we went thru the last 2 years together and never once had i thought how important he would be in helping me come this far, but not just him, even my other frens with whom i place my trust in greatly.. and never once had they disappoint me, thanks so much you guys :)

and now, as we walk down this new journey set ahead of us filled with new and even greater obstacles, i can be sure that not just old friends, even new friends will be there to guide and aid each other through.. that's the kind of spirit that i wish and hope to see, and i know that as we move on, that's the kind of spirit that everyone will have..





just some mindless, no-link ramblings.. dun treat this too seriously, im just over-reacting..

huurrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... bloody cold day man.. pretty boring as well.. totally nothing to do or watch...

finished doing maths work, damn sian, think i forgot the lectures... actually din feel like doing it anyway... but just do ahead of next week..

i'm gettin quite sian of the games i have, DMC, final fantasy, dota, need for speed... someone pls lend me new and good games pls?!?!?! i need it to pass my weekends..

now looking thru the photos i've taken in school... we've had so much fun preparing for our class item and flag, and it all came out nicely.. our class flag looked so damn cool, thanks to everyone who chipped in to help paint it.. (esp stella who helped out so much to paint the diff tones that came out so cleanly) and i totally like my bullshit about our flag's meaning!! it was so damn impromptu, and adriel sabo me to take the mic, so i no choice just spoke watever crap about the flag i could think of, but hey, it worked din it...

that was last nite's campfire.. the whole ntie was so damn high man, everyone was shouting like mad, i even have a freakin sore throat now, but i dun regret it cos it was one of the best time i had... went out late at night with the class and our senior class for late nite dinner/supper..... had some games, then almost missed the last bus home all thanks to MISLEADING INFO FROM ADRIEL... good thing i quickly took another bus to macritchie just in time to take the LAST 156 bus, where stella, terrence and qiuyu were on as well.. heg sia..

and i'm looking forward to school next week, meetings with the class and our seniors as well.. hehheh niiccceeee....

gosh, had a blasting and unforgetable, yet disgusted and pissed off time of my life today..

4th day in our ct classes, gosh we really bonded together as classmates, sharing jokes and chatting and wat not... laughing away like mad and just thoroughly enjoying our time together..

i was damn tired today, damn damn tired... i couldn't sleep last nite, only slept from 1 to 4.30, urgghhh wat the hell.... then chen xiao and i slept on the tables in the canteen while our classmates were chatting away around us.. i woke up just in time to get some lunch with zhi wei, the rest of my class were gone!! :( haha i thought they left the canteen without me.. lucky met zhiwei and had lunch together.. good thing my classmates were kind enough, told another classmate i was alone and he came by to sit with me and zhi wei..

had our first intro lectures today, maths and chem.. was ok, but freezing like mad.. then chem got diagnostic test somemore.. lucky i remembered most of my stuff, though a few mistakes here and there :p ended around 4 and we were dismissed.. wasted no time to quickly get our class banner up for tml's campfire and prepare for class performance.. great class spirit at work man, everyone chipped in to get the painting of our banner done, tho we ran out of stuff and someone had to rush to get them outside.. had a great chat with everyone and was laughing away at adriel's antics.. in the end, our banner looked so damn great, it was even better than wat i had designed with chenxiao and jeremy yesterday!! (ah yes, i did come up with some designs and ideas of the banner while chen and jeremy came up with some pretty cool improvisions as well, so i did help out quite some) it was so cool totally, we were so damn proud of it.. had late nite dinner at coro and again laughing away at the joker adriel..

but that was when the fun part ended.. was raining like mad when i got off the bus to go home.. then got no shelter, so had to run in the pouring rain all drenched and soaked to the skin.. then when i got under a nearby void deck to get shelter, this group of bastards at the void deck sudenly laughed away hysterically at me, pointing at me and laughing at my wet and drenched state.. i was damn pissed off man, those idiots are just so damn inconsiderate and mean, totally inhumane without sparing a thought for others... they were laughing like crazy, as if i was the funniest thing they've saw, bunch of bastards man.. i just walked off, i couldn't be bothered with those kind of idiots... and they just spoiled a totally wonderful day for me.. piece of crap...

just back from school, and i had a blast of a time..

hwachong is absolutely great man.. the school culture and life rox. im so damn glad i chose hwachong as my first choice...

today was the first time we were split into our classes.. only one person from my og got into the same class as me, kinda sad that we had to be in diff classes.. but nevermind, chen xiao and adriel are in the same class! whoo!!! friends of 4 years gettin together in the same jc, and in the same class 07s69, rare chance man.. haha and i found out my classmates are really so damn nice lar..

we also had our senior meet junior session, yeah our class seniors rock as well, cool people man.. especially the guy who talked and shared so much with me on the bus to KAP..

oh yeah, the class with our seniors also went down to KAP mac's for dinner, spent an awesome time chatting and laughing away... then playing some games rite in mac's and making so much noise.. speaking of which, me, chen xiao and adriel met bruno, and his NJ friends in mac's, yeah laughing at him was also quite an entertainment man..

now im so dman tired.. i've not been sleeping well for the past few days, even for a week.. and as everyday apsses we draw closer to the release of our results.. gosh its so damn scary, i really dun want to get kicked out, i've not work so hard to come so far just to get released from the jc of my choice, no it wouldn't happen.. im not allowing it to happen..

treasure the time while it lasts...

ops... damn long never blog liao.. aiya whole day whole life playing games...

school start le, cannot play anymore :(

its been 2 days in hcjc.. pretty good, had quite some fun.. but very hard to socialise... too shy leh :p

but at least got a few frens with me in the school, at least still got some people to talk to la, if not damn lonely sia....

tho im not confident about staying there after o level results come out.. seriously im damn scared man.. i just can't imagine the horror im gonna face when i get back my results and find out im gonna get kicked out.. wa sian i wanna stay, dun feel like changing jc..

sian every nite is like a freaking nightmare... until this is over i can only hope for the best....