Back then, it was more comfortable, more joyful, more fun..
and ever since my feelings took over, things have slowly been changing for the worse.. till this point..
I hate it, I hate the fact that things are the way they are now.. I hate the fact that I'm so used to the way things were before, that this sudden change has completely threw me off-guard.
I wish this was just temporary.. that this happened solely because of the urgency of what is coming up soon..
I wish things could go back the way they were...
Lord, take my feelings and put them away from this, that I will learn not to invest so much of my feelings into these matters. But Lord, I pray, that You will put things back in order the way they used to be... the comfortable way... because I cherish what I had before...
I don't want a repeat of what happened last year.. I really don't..
