I wish things could go back the way they were...

Back then, it was more comfortable, more joyful, more fun..

and ever since my feelings took over, things have slowly been changing for the worse.. till this point..

I hate it, I hate the fact that things are the way they are now.. I hate the fact that I'm so used to the way things were before, that this sudden change has completely threw me off-guard.

I wish this was just temporary.. that this happened solely because of the urgency of what is coming up soon..

I wish things could go back the way they were...

Lord, take my feelings and put them away from this, that I will learn not to invest so much of my feelings into these matters. But Lord, I pray, that You will put things back in order the way they used to be... the comfortable way... because I cherish what I had before...

I don't want a repeat of what happened last year.. I really don't..