i don't know why..

my mind is in a mess..

there's something wrong.. i lost confidence, i lost self-esteem, i seem to lose any shred of hope i have of myself..

the strange thing is, i know it's wrong..

but why am i not doing anything about it? where's my willpower? where's God's voice telling me what/how i should be doing about it?

where's my self-consciousness ?

i'm feeling distant even towards myself.. i don't seem to get what's in me or in my head.. i seem, different, even to myself..

where am i heading to?

WHO can i turn to?

precisely.. WHO?

God, so i kneel before You.. it's just You and me, my heart and soul and spirit..

no sorry, it's not even about me..

God, so i kneel before You.. YOU shall show me and tell me..

YOU alone shall be my answer..